CHOCOLATE CAKE

YES... YES... i know i know... i didnt write abt the day my frends came over to my house... dont worry... cuz i wont :P.... im just not bothered enuf.... and anyway they wrote abt it in ther blogs so... if ur THAT interested... go read it from there....

ANYHOO...today... i just had this real intense urge to eat a choco cake... but not any choco cake... the ones with a melted center... emmmmmmmmmm....... so i started to search some recipes.... evn though i knew my mom wudnt allow me to make it... it just creates a lotta mess.... and my mom thinks i cant clean up aftr cooking.... which i can.. but dont like to :P... so i sucked up to my dad... and told him how mean mom is and how delicious the cake looked.... and it WORKED..... he told mom... and mom... with an angry tone sed... I NEVER TOLD HER THT SHE CANT MAKE IT... SHE JUST BETTER CLEAN UP AFTERWARDS .... with fireworks clasting inside me...and a smiling face... i started to search recipes....

than i saw a REALLY AMAZING RECIPE ON YOUTUBE... which i hapened to hav seen on tv once... and the molten choco cake just look reallly delicious... so with a watering mouth and half concious mind... i wrote down the recipe and halved it so i make only 2 cakes.... i sneaked to the kitchen and started to make it.... melted the butter, added cocoa powder (i didnt hav dark choco chips in my house), whisked an egg with sugar and 1.5 tblspns of flour.... mixed it all up... and than.. i got stuck... i didnt hav the ryt kind of cups to make it in... the ones i had wernt deep enuf... so i just had to use them and hope that the inside wud still melt.... i stuck them in the oven.... and literally WATCHED them rise for the whole 20 mins....

i pulled the cakes out....it was just plain bad timing.... my bro saw me and hes like... i want 1... im like... sorry i cant remove them cuz i just took them out of the oven... it wont seperate fro the container... he poked in the cake.. and hes like.. no its not that hot... asshole... than i tried removing it ... infront of the ac... lol... i gave him half of it and split the rest between my mom and me.... well... as expected the center didnt melt :(.... my mom sed... ewww its bitter (just cuz she hates chocolate stuff and calls them bitter... so her saying its bitter.. is actually good... means that it tastes chocolaty) and undercooked... i told her that if that was uncooked than the actual recipe tells us it shud b RAW... so then... i had 1 cake left... i agreed with my mom that... either it shud be melted in the center or fully cooked... i cant possibly melt the centre now... so the only choice was to stick it back in the oven... well once again.. i was scared of my previous bakin experience of burning stuff... and watched it cook all over again.... hahaha.... but this time i made use of the time to clean up the mess i made....

I pulled it out and... it was perfect... i just had to take a picture of it....so i sprinkled sum sugar on it so it looked lke white dust... than i took sum maple syrup from the fridge and dazzled it on top so it looked "proffessional" :P.... the topping wud also make the cake a lil sweeter so my mom can b satisfied... wen mom went in the kitchen to start serving dinner... she realised that i cleaned up .. YEY!!!... but than she kinda got angry at me for only cleaning up the dishes i used and not the ones in the sink b4 it... according to her.. ther wer only 2 other dishs i shud hav washed... exageration is sumthing Konkani women are born with... lol... i ignored her and started to take pics of the cake and writing my blog.. wich i am finished today... ryt now

Ups and Downs...

now that all the planning of the movie visit is over... i can , with no doubt, say that all my frnds are cuming to my house to watch a movie, after skool and inshallah we will hav a blast... ill obviously ryt abt it in my blog l8r...

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i just realised a hav a really busy long weekend coming up... im also going paintballin on thurs... my cuz and his wife are cuming from kuwait on thursday night... only for 2 days... but ill b with them for a lot of the time... the cuz that im going paintballing with.. her grandparents r cming to qatar on sunday... so ill b ther to meet them at the airport.... and on top of all that i hav a lotta hw....

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at skool today.. i had a really bad atomach ache... so i finally went to the nurse durng last lesson.... wen i went ther... she looked at me with those scary eyes of hers and sed... wats wrong... i told her everything.... shes like its almost the end of skool, do u wanna go home... i rele didnt wana go cuz i was looking forward for charity after skool... she tld me the only other option i had was to take a panadol... so i accepted after thinking for like 5 mins... lol...

i did feel better after i took the panadol.... but b4 i went off to my activity with nisaa.... marium asked me to stand next to her wen she breaks her frndship with mona... i guess im the experieced frndship breaker al of a sudden.. hahaha... but it was wierd... i felt like lafing... but i didnt cuz marium wud kill me after .... mona was abt to tear... well she diserves it.. she is such a abig fat lier.... she is UNFATHFUL and DISHONEST...

than nisa and i wer off to charity committee... ther was no1 in lab3... and we wernt botherd to go around looking for miss nolen... so we stayed ther... made maps... wrote stuff on the board... we both tried writing with both hands at the same time like a mirror image... it wasnt as difficult as i thot.. but my left hand was just horrible.. lol...

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i am rele excited to c u guys at my house tomoro... btw... we still donno wat movie to watch.. lmao


take care... bubyes

Cant think of any...

continuing the last post..... u no u no .... she msgd my on fb.. saying sorry and crap like that... and that she didnt mean to hurt me... and that i misunderstood her ... and then nd then... in skool the first thing she sez to me is... "wers my container"... i was trying not to laf in frnt of her.. but i cudnt help bursting out in lafter after she left... i mean seriously... i was gonna giv it to her.. its not like im gonna bring it to skool and not giv it to her.... and than wen we wer going to tutor clas... she sed that stuff again... abt me misunderstanding her and stuf.. i sed... "just leave me alon with my frnds... u wer never suposed to b my frnd... u shud get sum1 ur own age"... i felt better .... im so BAD... :P.....

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well today... al of us discussed abt doing sumthing in the long weekend.... we planned to cum to my house for a movie ... (cuz of the surround-sound system i hav :D)... but we cudnt decide on a date... thursday.. i was planning to go paintballing... friday... rawan cudnt cum... saturday... lily had a 'meeting' with lee... sunday... its just to close to a skool day.... i dono y we didnt discuss abt wednesday... well lily and i r talking ryt now... online... and she claims that an anonymous person sed they cant cum on wednesday.... so sum1 had to sacrifice... i sed i wud try and talk to my cuzin... wen i taled to her.. she sed that she alredy booked my place in the event and that I PROMISED... she got all emotional abt it... i no i no.. u myt think that shes my cuzin and ill get to c her weneva i want and wereva i want.. but thats not true... if ur rele interested to no y that is... ask me at skool or sumthin... i wont ryt it here... im not botherd.... so so tha.. shes like.. ask ur frnds to come with us.. im like... ill try.. i met siti first... in cc... she rejected the offer... i didnt ask y.. i think i knew y... anyway.. than i asked lily... she sed no.. so i assume rawan wll say no.. and so will the rest of the ppl... so then i got so angry.... and i took it out on lily... sory for that... anywa.. i told her that... im always the 1st to sacrifice.. y cant any of u ppl do it... i told her... its actually beter if she duznt go with lee... so he thinks that shes not soooo interested in him... and many other reasons... anyway.. i thot she would talk back.. but insted shes like... okay ill cancel it with lee on sat.. and make it on thurs.. so we can go on Saturday....

so i think i need to go ask my mom.... if u guys can cum over... but i need more info.. abt how many ppl r cuming and stuff... cuz for dinner i bet.. mom wud say.. walk to the fast food shops outside and buy sumthing for urself... cuz she duznt like coooking for my frnds.. cuz u myt not like the food and myt not eat at all... and diff ppl hav diff tastes... like my family eats spicey stuf... rawan and sum others wudnt like it... so y not eat fast food... anyway... so i think it wud b gr8 if we all came to my house on Sat after maghrib prayer... abt 6ish... to watch a movie.... so ask ur parents tonyt and tell me tmoro.... ill giv u the adress tomoro ppl.... anyway i still need to ask my mom.. ill tel u the ans tomoro.. its not like shes gonna say no.. lol


anyway.. i spent mor time on this post than i needed too. so.. i shall stop writing .. abt HERE

Its just the way it is....

im soo so soooooooo SORRYY for not writing anything lately.... wel i cant say i was that busy... but every time i logged in... i red wat others had commented and left.... i never felt i had something worthwhile to write on my blog.... welll now finnallyy i hav somethin to write abt....

i kno i hav been sayng this alot... and that u (my frnds) r mayb sick of lisning to me saying it.... anyway

thers this girl... at skool... shes indian...and shes in yr 9... she keeps coming to me... she talks in hindi and always talks abt her effing stupid life...... wich im not interested in.....i rele hate her... i never showed it tho... she has no frnds u see.... she keep following me and taking me places i dont wanna... she tries to take me away from my frnds... she thinks that i actually care abt her... and i bet shes just jelous abt the fact that I DO HAVE FRNDS...welll i went to her bday party on sat evn tho her bday is today..... i didnt want to... and i sed no... but than she made her mom ask mine... and my mom had to say yes "cuz her mom was saying plz sooo many times". well i went ther.. i was the only teenager... every1 was twice or thrice my age.... thats cuz she has no frnds... she claims that GIRLS CANT TAKE INSULTS ON THER FACE and guys can so she is frnds with mor guys than girls.... well she came home and we sed surpise... and she like tottally gave me looks and stufff.... the food was good btw... but anyhooo... wen she was talking t me on the way home...

she said that she hated lily and rawan... for giving her "DEEE LOOKSSS, SERIOUSLY DEE LOOKKS... like tottally DEE LOOKS" well firstly she shud get her accent ryt than she should just F*** off.... i was soo mad... how dare she say sumthing like that abt my frnds IN FRONT OF ME.... but i kept quiet in the car... i felt like punching her in the face... than she continued saying stuff like .... i shud hang out with other ppl more cuz life will get boring if u hang out with the same ppl over and over agian... i told her NOT IF U HAVE THE PERFECT FRNDS... well she had the guts to continue... she sed that if they wernt my frnds... she wud hav kicked ther asses... that rele got me mad...

i went home... and thot abt everything she sed... well i didnt hav that much time.. cuz than i went out with appi (thats wat i call my older cuzin [sis]) for a hindi movie with SHARUKH KHAN... if u no him... it had a gr8 ending... but than i came home after the movie and thot abt it.... i planned that i will confront her.. that i never rele liked her.. and that i was just holding on until she gets sum frnd... but it was just too farr... today in the morning... i hated her more.. she inturupted lily.. again... to call my a bitch in different words in hindi... wen i stared at her... shes like U DIDNT EVN WISH ME... im like happy bday with a straight face... she told me to wait for her to get her bag... as usual... but this time i didnt... i went along lafing and talkin with my frnds.... than wen she met me by the stairs she asked me y i wsas quiet and y i didnt talk... i told her to meet me 1st break and shell kno

well first break i was busy doing my math past paper and she had to do sum shit too.... but she still came to me saying that she was busy 2nd break too... and i had finished math by then.... i tld her that wat she sed yesterday was mean.. and that she should get lost cuz i was just helping her out until she got a frnd... she sed .. in a sarcastic way.... WELL THANK U VERY MUCH FOR UR HELp.... and stomped off.... i felt like i didnt win... i felt like cntinuing.. i felt like telling her that... if she had a personality, she wud hav had atleast 1 friend... thankfully my frnds kept quiet... and didnt laf.. or interupt..... but than 2nd break she came to me... saying that she wanted the cntainer (that she geve me cake in) back.....im like okay... and turned back to my frnds... it was so stupid.... haha cant beliv she sed that... its not like im gonna keep it... wth

well wen i got home... mom told me that i had a call from her.... and my mom was smiling.. i didnt no y... duz she no abt this?? well wteva... im not calling that stupid person back....

wel now i want u ppl to comment.. and tell me if i was ryt....or if i was wrong... so i can proov that i was ryt.lol..... altho i do feel guilty... but proud that i stood up for my frnds... and that i luv them mor than anything in the world... and no1 cud eva dare say anything abt themm... unless they want ther ass kicked... muah luv u guys.... *hugs* ....... without killing ur head this time, nisa.... hahaha... its just the way it is....

Thursday the 29th... in other words the best day of my life

So, now that you know my buddies, let me tell u about a thursday that changed my life...

it all started when we entered a challenge to make money from only QR50 to give it to charity for Ghaza... me, rawan, siti, nisa, lily, amsya, ina, cania, farah and marsya planned that we wud enter this challenge and sell candies at farahs compound to make money... i considered myself as the organiser, as usuall, and planned it accurately. The people staying after school wud walk to West Bay Petrol Station, have lunch at one of the resteraunts and set off to farah's house with Cania's mother... the others wud just be ther at 3....

Marsya dropped out before any1 else and refused to come as she has had "bad experiences" in door to door selling... when me, lily, rawan, nisa, and cania met after school on thursday, we walked to the resteraunt and saw REALLY HOT french school guys.... but unfortunatly they all wer with hot girls... cania and lily ordered cheese burgers, nisa and i ordered szchezwan (i so donno the spellin) rice ... which was toooo big for either of us to finish... and rawan ordered ... potato wedges... nisa kept DUMPING the food in her stomach.. she didnt evn CHEW!!!... than cania's mom came and we all took off for Farah's ... on the way i got a call from amsya saying that she myt b late as she just left for home from skool!!... as the nice person i am.. :P i sed SURE... then we all started blowing balloons... well lily blowed her FIRST EVER BALLOON... and rawan ... i think she was just chewing on the balloon the whole time... :P... when we got there... farah was still having lunch... so we took off without her to sell around compound....

our first interaction was with a couple of girls playing on the street... but they had no money, so they didnt buy anything... after that we went to a couple peoples houses and realised most of them were sleeping... until we reached a house that scared the hell out of each and every 1 of us... as soon as the lady opened the door, we told her abt our charity event and she gave us a mean look... she started ranting abt how its against qatari law to ask for money in compounds and how she was gonna SEND US TO PRISON!!! we told her we were sorry and just left as soon as she closed the door... al of our hearts were beating 500 times normal speed....

as soon as we turned around we met the ladies neighbour... we told her abt the thing the lady tellin us that we will be going to jail and stuff.... the neighbour sed thers no such thing and we shud continue and leave that lady alone cuz shes KOO KOO.... some of us were calm again but i was still creeped out inside... as we walked forward... our first customers (the little girls on the streets) came bak to us and sed they wanted to buy stuff.... we quickly follwd them out of that street and sold candies... still fearing that our next customer myt call the police...

Soon we got a call from siti and amsya that they are lost... lily imediatly sed "i have to go to the big bridge"... im like WTH... Y??... if ur going.. so am i....cuz i realised it was the first time siti got permission to go out with us... we both left for the bridge telling the rest to continue with the selling... as we waited by the bridge, lily and i got a WHOLE LOTTA HONKING... which seriously annoyed me... we also got sum waves from a cupl teachers... we kept getting call after call from both of them on wer they r and how lost they r... it was an hour now that we waited at the bridge.. still no sign of the 2... i saw some1 fimiliar's face.... it was INA!!!... and she went the wrong direction!! we were hopless as we didnt hav her no. or anything... after another 15 mins... i get a call from amsya saying that she cant cum cuz shes too lost.. and an sms from siti saying her dad was angry and cant make it... that was the moment of hell... lily sed nothing... we were disappointed... lily was REALLY disappointed... she kept thinking that if some of us cant make it... we r incomplete ... and its not gnna work... we tried so hard to make it work... that was when i knew i had to do my job and explain to her.. i explained that things dont always go the way we want them to... and that we hav to show the rest that evn if some of us drop out.. we will still do wat we came here to do... we wont give up like them...

Farah called me on my cell saying that her mom brot doughnuts and that ina was ther with them... that really shocked lily and me... evn with the wrong map, evn by going the rong direction, evn tho she didnt hav my no. to call for directions, ina didnt giv up... and she made it...

we went to farahs house still disappointed abt the other two... lily still didnt feel happy.... but i tried my best to make her feel beter... and just left her alone for a few mins to calm herself down... after a lil rest.. we all set off to go to the teachers houses... cuz it wud b safer... and none of them wud call the police on us... all of a sudden we see mr griffin and a whole bunch of kids around him... the kids came running towards us (the balloons attracted them)... and we sold to mr griffin.. he only gave us 8 riyals.. saying thats all he had... QIS shud really increase the tchrs pay... :P... 1 aftr another we went to as many tchrs as we cud... Mr Caddick, Mr Scofield, Mr Worrilow, etc... and collected their GENEROUS donations...

We kinda realised that some1 was following us all along... a cupl boys on their bikes wer on our tails since the begining... after we finished selling to the teachers, we tried going to other houses but the annoying brats wud tell the people not to buy from us... wehn i asked one of them wats wrong and y they r bing such assholes... he told us to F*** our GRANDMAS!!!... wow... a small mouth but HUGE WORDS ..... we tried al we cud to get rid of them but then i sed.. we only hav 4 bags left... and its getting dark... lets all go bak to farahs... the bike boys followed us ther too... Ina just turned around... gave them THE LOOK... she started scolding the kids and told them that she will tell ther parents... then all of a sudden both the kids and ina were quiet... and stared at each other continuosly... i found it very interesting, i shouted..."WOW A STARE CONTESTS... I WANNA PLAY"... ina cudnt help herself and giggled... im like.. leave them alone.. lets just go inside and hav fun...

We left the kids waiting outside and went up to Farah's room... we all were realy hyper for sum reason... nisa and rawan bot the remaining bags and then we counted the money... we made $410 RIYALS.... we were al so happy... al the hard work payed off... we made twice than wat we expected.... we were soo happy we took pics with the money and with each other... This was the part that changed my life... i realised that it doesn't really sound that amazng... but it all started like this... we started askin each other ques. abt how we want our future partners to b like and how we picture ourselves as in the future... those questions made us all very mushy and touchy and emotional... we all were thinking abt how we wont b with each other in a cupl years... then i came up with a ques... lets all tell each other 1 of our Secrets...

I started with mine... cuz i knew i had to make them al confident enuf to do such a thing... evn tho my secret was sumthing every1 thinks is normal... but i dont think people realise if that NORMAL... goes beyond limit its not normal anymore.... and then lily told us her secret... she sed "i still like....." we all turnd our heads and sed "We know alredy"... she was so shocked she sed ... HEY THATS NOT FAIR U GUYS TRICKED ME... hahaha.... than it was... i think Farah's turn cuz rawan and cania had no secrets.. and i beliv them.... after hearing Farahs secret i KNEW FOR SURE that she is having too much GARLIC AND CORRIANDER.... its an internal thing.. u wont get it... than it was Nisa's turn... her secret resembled one of my life experiences .... i shared with her my thoughts and soon we moved on to Ina's secret... it was something that reached all our hearts.... she has gone through soo much in her life... she has been so brave, yet soo weak all along... she hadnt told her parents abt that either.. it was a secret that made us all shed tears... we al despretly needed tissues.... Farah's like wait wait... ill go get them... aftr a minut... she came in the room with a hand busy blowing her nose and the other hand with a big roll of toilet paper.. we alllll BURST OUT LAFING... shes like i didnt know wer the others were so i got this... it was such a sudden change of emotion.. i still am lafing remembering the moment...

It was about 7 when we realised we shud call our parents to pick us up... i knew my parents wudnt find farahs house with the rong map... so i asked lily if she ca drop me to landmark so that i can meet my parents there.... lily agreed.. than it turnd out that rawans mom and dad wer in landmark too... so she planned to come along with us to landmark... it was soo sad wen we were abt to leave.. all those memories wud just b memories.... so then with rele sulking hearts we went to the front door as if we never wanted this time to pass and b with each other foreva... than lily decided to pop a baloon and sed out load ... "lets hope our frndship lasts 4eva"... and rawan replied.... "unlike the baloon".... hahaha........Nisa and Cania took off to their frends house wich was in farahs compound so they cud b dropped off home later... and lily, rawan and i took off with lily's mom to landmark....

Although it was the end of the day... i knew it wasnt the end of our lives... and certainly not the end of our frndship...

may such good memories keep comin again in all our lives.... amen....

1st post: Friends

hmmm... this is awkward for me... im trying to capture the feeling of my first post... but there isnt any...

Let me start talking about my friends... i think my blog wud b mostly abt my life with them so you better know them all first... (not in any specific order)



Rawan... she is a qatari (but kuwaity mom)... she was frends with me b4 any of the others... she LOOKS... and trust me wen i say LOOKS... quiet and sweet and soft... but she ISNT... she is a devil stuck in that body... she has been with me from easy times to tough times... and i dont think i could ever forget her... she is gonna hate me for writing abt her on this :P



Lily... the first thing that comes to my mind is that she is CHINESE... my one and only chinese friend... thats 1 of the reasons she is precious... :P...wether ppl beliv me or not but she is the most experienced and mature yet the innocent one of us... i have shared alot of things with her without her actually noticing.. she is my treasure chest...and the keys are with her.. but she duznt know wer they r :D



Nisa... i see myself in her alot!! she is from indo... she is funny, floppy, understanding and a great sole... she can really steal ur heart... she doesnt make things complicated (specially her homework :P) ... i dont know why but i see nisa in my life in the future... as a friend for life... (no ofence ppl.. :P)



Cania... she is plain WIERD... from her cartoony expressions to her out of the blue remarks... also from indo...she may seem smart but wen it comes to mine and lily's adultish innuendos... she gets confused... she gets on my nerves sometimes but her simplicity makes me like her evn more...



Marsya... who is malaysian, is NEUTRAL... VERY slow reacter... i have never seen anybody in my life like her... she really confuses me and makes me wanna doubt myself... like Cania, she duznt get any of the adultish jokes either... but she has seen more than any of us... very talented in photoshop and stuff...



Siti... is from Brunei... i feel like i still dont know her... i try my best to get to know her.. she is like a grain in a bag full of rice... she is caring, loving and sweet... she is the type of person who will, instead of jumping in the sea to save you will call an expert diving team and make sure you come out safely...



Ina aka Afrina aka Fagira etc...hehe.. is malaysian....on a more serious note.. she has gone through tougher times than any of us... and though she may think she is weak, she is actually the strongest one of us... i respect and look up to her... and hope that she makes it to the top...



Farah... egyptian... is a person with alot of knowledge... howeva i hav never found her knowledge useful to me.. mayb in these teenage years i dont need such complex information... i think 1/2 her brain is fully grown and mature and the other half is on the edge of maturity... i think i wud come to her in the future to ask for advice ... hehehe



I still hav Amsya, Eman, Kerry, Tina, Mariam, and Tosin left... but my fingers are sore and my eyes are killing me.. so i think ill end my first post ryt here... :D